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So here I sit this morning, typing out this blog post and it feels weird, and pretty damn glorious if I'm honest. My blog writing (or lack there of) has always been reserved for the evenings, when the boys were tucked up in bed. Turns out a tired, frazzled brain does not a good blogger make, or that was indeed the case for me.

It's been one heck of an emotional time here lately. A time of change for everyone. Caleb has started school, and as if that wasn't quite enough change for us all, I waved Archie off for his first full morning session at nursery today. As I walked away from the school and nursery buildings empty handed, I didn't know whether to skip, laugh or cry. 

I guess that's how I feel about this whole transition. Part excited, part devastated. Ready for change, yet fighting it. This yo-yo feeling has brought with it a lot of anxiety too, and left me questioning myself. The biggest question being who exactly am I outside of being the boys mum? In the last five years so much of my identity has been made up of being a stay-at-home mum that stepping outside of that, even for a few hours every day seems daunting. Does that sound silly? Oh there is nothing quite like a 36 year old woman having an identity crisis now is there?! My lucky husband ;)

But as I sit here in silence (yes silence, glorious silence, I didn't even want the radio or music on) I feel good. I feel without even realising it we were all ready for this next stage, ready for new challenges and adventures outwith each other. They're both going to get a chance to grow as individuals in their own right, and ironically so am I once again. 

The time I've longed to give this blog is finally here. I've come to realise I question my capabilities as a blogger (yep, just called myself a blogger, that's a first for me!) far too much, rather than be proud that whilst bringing two young children up I have found a job that I can work around them and their school and nursery hours. This very fact makes me even more determined to not let my self-confidence ruin the opportunities I'm being given.

This new chapter for me is all about growth, kinda exciting to think you never stop growing. I'm a mum, but I'm also a person in my own right, and it's going to be rather nice getting to know her again.

So what can you expect from this space in the upcoming months?

Keep an eye out for interior posts, how to find your interior style, the pros and cons to living in a new build, how de-cluttering changed my life. I'll also be sharing more about my personal style as a busy mum who loves her clothes but doesn't have a silly budget to spend on them. There will, of course, be more adventures with my family in Edinburgh and further afield too. I also plan to introduce monthly features on different topics too.

I'm really excited to get back to blogging regularly and I hope you come join me too.

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  1. Ah Claire I think you're incredible for going this long without any time to do something just for you regularly! Earlier this year, when Oscar was only about 18 months old, I really started to notice that I had zero time for me - I was either at work or parenting, and I started putting Oscar in nursery for about one day a month, just to get a little bit of time back. I felt guilty but mentally so much better for it! I can't wait to see more of your blog! Yours is one of my absolute faves - I can't believe you haven't called yourself a blogger before, you're an amazing one!! Xxx

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    1. Oh never feel guilty!! I think time to ourselves make us much better parents. Good for you! I knew this time would always come for me so I held out, though I don't know how good that has been for my confidence outwith being a mum. It's something I'm definitely going to have to work on building back up.

      Thanks so much for being so supportive, and I'm thrilled your now blogging! We need to meet up before this year is through xxx

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  2. Exciting times ahead, looking forward to reading more from one of my faves! 💛 Stay confident bruv and the rest will follow x

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    1. Thank you, bruv. For always taking the time to read, support and comment! Love that we have each other in the blogging world xxx

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  3. The plans for your blog sound amazing and I look forward to seeing where the next chapter takes you! It's all to easy to put ourselves down but you are doing an amazing job 😊

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    1. Thank you so much, Chloe! It feels so good to finally have this time for me, and I'm hoping my confidence will build the more I get into this new rhythm xx

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  4. So excited for you and to see what you do! X

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  5. I bet you have such a sense of satisfaction this week for having published a post! Well done you. I feel your pain - my woefully unattended blog is hopefully going to be resurrected when my 2.5yo starts pre school in September. I'm equally nervous and excited but will probably do a little dance when I have a silent house to myself. Looking forward to reading more!

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  6. You know what? I sat down to this post expecting tears from myself - but I am so so proud of you lady! Yes this is your time and your blog plans sound wonderful! Look at all the brilliant things you've achieved with zero time to yourself! The next few months is going to be such an exciting time for you and I can't wait to see it all unfold. Love you beauty xxxx

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  7. Oh Claire, I got so excited reading this. I think I would feel exactly the same as you but this time you have now to invest in yourself is so precious. Super excited for what's ahead of you my darling and so proud of you already! xxx love you lots xxx

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